Laughable Life

If my life could be turned into a book or a movie I guarauntee that it would become a best-seller or a blockbuster. If not a blockbuster then a cult-hit at the very least. No one could possibly believe that the events would be based on a true story, but I assure you all of it would be.

The twists and turns of my daily life would astound even the most unfortunate soul. My life has always been this way, but has gotten even more intense since growing into so-called 'adulthood'. Now my problems are just bigger and cost more.

In the wake of all the bad stuff that happens I always try to remain optimistic. I remind myself (often) that in order to get to the good stuff we must make our way through the haze first; that I shall one day be rewarded for the bumpy road I have endured by eventually landing on one paved in gold.

In example: Jason Mraz will be coming to Boston in October. I must see him. Alas I have no money to purchase tickets today. I fear that by the time money IS available to me I will be unable to FIND tickets. I keep from crying by convincing myself that out of the kindness of someone's heart they will get me a ticket for my birthday. Of course when October 17th comes around and I am not sitting in a seat at the Orpheum Theater being serenaded by my undercover lover himself I will probably cry. But for now the fantasy gets me through today.

Another example: I have exactly $5.98 to my name until Friday. I have made it three days now with that amount in my bank account not changing or being altered. I have been paying for my morning coffee with change each morning just to squeeze by. I have been eating bologna sandwiches every day for lunch. I have found a couple of dollars and will splurge today to buy one slice of pizza for lunch in order to partake in the goodbye party for my departing supervisor's last day in the office here. I am looking forward to that pizza slice like no other pizza slice before it.

With all of the crap that is going down in my life I feel good knowing that in a few short (long) days I will be reunited with my fiance for the first time in months. For now that is all I can look forward to.